Love, Lust, and Infatuation

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Love- My match. How could I be without you?! Why would I want to be without you?! Sometimes I put you before myself. Sometimes i love you more than I love myself. We spend so much time together trying to figure each other out and in the end we realize that we already know everything and we are just being complicated for the other. We say we play games with each other and in actuality we started the game the other finishes. You hurt me more than you ever know. I try to stay strong for you, for my pride, my dignity. You are the one that never calls, never texts back, and yet you remain my number one. My sanity has vanished. It only takes 3 seconds for me to lose my train of thought when your name appears. Your day is my day, all of your pain and struggle, your downfall I uplift. Its my job you are my baby I could never let you go. Even when it hurts so bad. Even when i want to leave. You mean the universe to me. above all of lifes existence, I want you and I.

Lust- You came into my life from a far. I didnt see you coming but when I was at my weakest moment you were there to break my fall. Never knew you would be the you, you are. I played all of my cards right and fell fast for you. You gave me alot to hope for. We spent alot of time together, feelings expanded vastly. Slowly I let you into my world. Occasionally you let me into yours. But then the seasons got cold. Times changed and guilt built. How could I? Why would I? Destroy three lives...so I fade. "Fall back"...eh?! I dont wanna do this anymore. I LOVE him. I dont wanna hurt you. I could love you, but not in this lifetime. Im sold. Attached at the hip. But you are something like a close friend. I enjoy your company and "that other side" you put me on too. I can be your hero, your module. You gave me my ego.

Infatuation- I peeped you on the "low low". Never expressed my inner on the outer because I knew you were dangerous. I knew you would be the ying to my yang! My excitement, keeping me on my toes. You drove me crazy and we never even exchanged words yet. And then you made your move. You captured me at interest. Had me gone and I wasnt even around you. I couldnt look atchu. Still cant look atchu. "My guilty pleasure I aint goin no where"...dont wanna be hurt but thats a feeling that already exists. I cant have my cake and eat it too? can I? But you told me I could. You were down with my naughty and I think you digged the fact that I almost let you take me away. You gave me an ultimatum...I sunk. I tried to reason the unreasonable. i couldnt do it. I had to pull away. You're toxic, and as much as I try to resist...im intoxicated. I wanna be free but im captured. Been here since the first words spoken between us.....and I just wanna be.....!